Life is busy
Everyone has their own level and intensity of busy-ness, I am no exception. It also comes as no surprise that there aren’t enough hours in a day. Nor enough energy to do everything on your list.
So, then you must make decisions.
Those decisions include what is most important and what is least important. Of course there are things that have to be done i.e. eating, sleeping, work – if you want to eat and have a roof over your head, laundry, family obligations. For the most part these things are required and are non-negotiable.
My desire has been to live a creative life. So, why is it that when I am building a life that will allow me more time and freedom to create, I no longer take the time to write.
Don’t get me wrong. I still write daily. Most of the time it is toward more “productive” endeavors and yet, that yearning to write and lose myself in a story begins to bubble to the surface.
What does this mean?
For me the act of creation is taking an idea, most often an image in my mind, and build the story. Creation means letting go of all of those “required” tasks. Creation means giving my mind the freedom to play. Putting the words on paper, searching for that exact word to make the meaning clear is soul filling and brings me such joy.
Yet, when life gets busy and I am spending all of my creative energy on my side hustle my writing life get tossed to the side?
This is the part that I struggle with: If I am working so hard to build a creative life why is it not more important.
This is one of those question of value.
What is more important? Making money and a living? Or, feeding your creative side.
Of course the answer is that both things are important. However, finding a balance between the two is key.
Again with the balance.
Yes, balance is, I’m discovering, never a thing that ‘once and done’. Balance requires looking at your life every day, sometimes moment by moment, to see where things lie.
Balance has become a calm voice of reason, one that whispers ‘it’s okay, your dream is still out there’ as I find negativity in my thoughts at the end of the day.
Balance is petting the cat just after she is fed because that is her favorite time for touch. It is taking that moment to see the connection and letting her go because that is what she wants.
Balance is stepping outside to look at the sky, focusing for a moment on something much bigger than myself.
A Soft Reset
Taking the time to breath in the cool night air as I head back into my house to bed, has become a nightly ritual. Right now I can see the stars and Mars, at least on a clear day, and in that moment nothing else matters.
It is soft reset button. A pause to see something bigger than the internal battle I wage each day between making a living and making a life.
I hope you take a moment to find your soft reset button. It only takes a moment but if you stop and breathe deep. You can give yourself just that little bit extra energy to finish the day.
Until next time,
Side Hustle Blues
Okay, so just as a warning: this may be a cry for help.
I have recently begun a side hustle, which I am grateful for and excited about. However, the idea of this is more appealing than the actual work.
Wanting to work from home and make a living has been a dream of mine for several years and I have worked with many different ideas to do this. One of my biggest fears is that my side hustle would become so busy that I wouldn’t be able to handle it.
How does this stuff work?
How do we find balance between work, home and the new stuff?
Yeah, I’m struggling. I will probably get used to it and I will learn to manage but dang, how do I deal in the mean time?
Here is what I am doing:
Breathe – yeah, I need to be reminded to do that sometimes.
Take advantage of the space I have in my life – Again, I need to be reminded of this from time to time. The one thing that I often do is that even when I am in the midst of downtime, I am thinking about work. In fact I’ve been thinking about this blog for a couple of days but didn’t write it until my deadline. I think I need to work on that.
Sit down and look at my schedule – I have another confession: I have a hard time saying no. What that means is I tend to overwhelm myself by taking on too much. And, then I become grumpy and forget to take care of myself. I’ve been looking at people and their planners and I believe it is something that would help me.
Let things go – Okay, this is the big one. I’ve needed to realize that I hang on to too many things for quite a while. I have to realize that I can’t do everything nor am I an island (if you’ve worked with me for any length of time, you know how hard this is for me).
Along with letting things go there is the asking for help when needed – I really need to work on this one. I hate depending on other people and asking for help. It’s a problem.
So, I’ve vented a bit. I think I needed to.
Tomorrow, I am going to hold my head up and work my side hustle. And, I’m going to try to take my own advice. Not something I am good at.
If you have any ideas, please tell me. I am open to suggestions.
Until next time,