Five Years and Counting…

Recently, the five year anniversary of this blog came and went. I meant to celebrate it but somehow things got a little crazy in my life. Which has become the norm I think. I want to believe that things will settle down but I’m not even sure what that means.

Back to the anniversary, it was 5 years ago on February 13th when I published my first blog post. I remember feeling sick to my stomach as I clicked on the publish button. I’d been taking a class on blogging and I thought I was ready.

In retrospect, I’m not sure I was.

I had big plans for my blog then. I was publishing about 3 times a week and doing well. I was even planning things out. But, as usual, life got in the way.

As I look back on the past five years, I can barely fathom how much things have changed in my life. Things that I took for granted. Things that I never expected to change.

I lost my brother just over three years ago. I’ve discovered how much this leaves a hole in a person’s life. Grief is a strange thing and I find that it hits me at weird times, sometimes unexpectedly and sometimes not. Several of my posts that year were about the feelings of grief and loss.

For nearly all of my professional life, I worked at one place. A place I truly believed in with a cause I still believe in. But in the months after I first pushed publish, the place I’d come to know as a second home things changed dramatically. I struggled to wade through the many changes that happened and continue to happen, all the while remembering what it had been like earlier in my career. I kept blogging even though sometimes that life crept into my writing.

Changes continued to happen until change itself became unbearable. I’ve hinted at my own healing journey and someday I will share that story with you. But in order to move forward, I had to leave some things behind.

Humble lessons.

I’ve learned many lessons over the last five years. At times I’ve done well with sharing my life with my readers, and at others, not so much. I’ve promised changes on my blog and sometimes even delivered them. And in a lot of ways, I’ve failed both my readers and myself.

One of the biggest things I’ve learned is to simply not give up. Even when things are quiet and my muse is in the background waiting for her invitation, this blog has been on my mind. I have so many thoughts and ideas that I want to share and would be helpful. But all of the turmoil in the past several years had made that difficult.

I’m not offering any promises for the next five years. I know that things can and will change on my blog and with my writing life. Some of these things I will share with you, I guess that is one promise I will give. Sharing the stories of my life in the hope that someone will find hope in their words.

Thank you for coming on this journey with me.

Until next time,
Angela

Happy Anniversary to Me

blackboard-620314_1280Just over a year ago, the first post on my blog went live. I cannot tell you how frightening it was to push the “publish” button. But I did and here I am one year later.

When I started this blog, I was in the middle of a class designed to take a person from idea to blog. I had lessons each week and assignments. The idea was to make plans for the blog and posts. I had this glorious idea to have a blog to promote healing through journaling. Life had other plans.

One of the assignments was to write some letters to yourself using a site called FutureMe.org. This site allows you to write letters and schedule them to be delivered to yourself at some future date. I wrote these letters and scheduled them. Apparently I added the wrong date because the first of these letters arrived today.

Reading this note from the past made me remember just how scared I was to have my words out there for everyone to see. I was so excited and so terrified all at the same time. That has eased over time although I still have anxiety on occasion.

It will be interesting to receive the other two letters I wrote.

As I look back over the past year and all that has happened, I am surprised where I am today.

My first blog post was entitled, ‘Dare to Dance Naked in the Light of your Own Truth‘ and that is what I felt at the time. Writing by nature is a sharing of a person’s internal life for the world to see. The moment I pressed publish I felt naked, exposed. I do have to say that one year later, I no longer feel that way.

Over the past several months, I have struggled with keeping up with the schedule I set for myself. I’ve had a lot of life happening and that seems to have created this struggle. My hope is that things will calm down and I can get my focus back.

Thank you for traveling this journey with me. And it has been a journey. I’ve learned so many lessons and have met many interesting people along the way. I can only believe things can only get better.

Anniversary Reflections

happy-anniversary-782471_1280My husband and I are celebrating a big anniversary soon. This is an amazing thing to me considering how difficult marriage can be. Not that it has always been easy, we’ve always done well.

To celebrate, we went to a place called The Melting Pot. This was an experience to say the least. I would recommend this restaurant for any occasion.

I’m not sure when fondue was invented, but it was quite popular in the 70’s. We all had memories of eating something out of a fondue pot. I don’t remember my family even owning a fondue pot, but I remember meeting a friend while camping and enjoying theirs. Fondue while camping is an interesting experience.

If you would like to experience fondue at its finest, The Melting Pot is a good place to start.  There are lots of options and we were able to choose our menu ahead of time. The fondue is made right at your table with an induction plate built into each one.

The first course is the cheese fondue with french bread, apples and veggies as dippers. Even my husband enjoyed the spinach and artichoke fondue, which was surprising.

For the second course, each person was given a plate of proteins to cook themselves in the fondue pot filled with broth. Veggies and potatoes were given to round out the meal. Though not strictly vegetarian, I still had many choices. Caleb, our grandson, enjoyed the cheese ravioli, especially when he was able to cook it himself.

Dessert was the best. We had two different chocolates to choose from. One was a turtle (chocolate and caramel with pecans) and the other was a silky dark chocolate. Again, there was a variety of dipping items including bananas, strawberries, brownies and rice crispy treats. Amazing.

Trying something new is one way to keep things interesting in marriage. I believe I am fortunate to have a husband who seldom says no to things like this. I am fortunate for so many different things and I am grateful for the past 15 years. I hope the next 15 are just as good.

Each anniversary has a specific gift assigned to it. Apparently, crystal is the traditional 15th-anniversary gift or watches for a modern one. We have never been traditional so our gift this year was a piece of property. We’ve had fun planning what to do with all the extra space.

We tend to run against the norm in most things. From trying new foods to making our own path, hubby and I have created a marriage that works for us. I think that is the key.