I’ve come to the first Wednesday of February and time for another installment of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group and I wanted to share some of the thoughts I’ve had in the past month.
Writing is hard. Especially when emotions run wild and out of control. This is a surprise to me since I use writing in my work with clients and I’ve used it for healing myself.
My dream to publish hasn’t died even though my heart hurts at the moment. I’ve tried not to be too hard on myself even when I feel I should be writing.
Healing from emotional pain takes a lot of energy. There has been very little left over for anything or anyone else lately.
Creativity hasn’t disappeared. It’s just muted. I’ve had moments of brilliance. There haven’t been many but enough to keep me going.
There are few words to describe the emotions of the past four weeks. I’ve given up trying and am just moving on.
Blogging on a schedule doesn’t work when life is topsy turvy. I am working on it. Hopefully, I can get back to normal.
As usual, life is full of lessons and I am learning them at full speed. Life will go on, whether I write or not, so I will follow my dream.
I will write.
Recently I read a blog post written by Jon Morrow of boostblogtraffic.com about why some bloggers are more successful than others. Mr. Morrow’s theory is that some bloggers are “dumb” or rather more successful bloggers approach their craft from a different, smarter way.
This idea is that bloggers who are successful are those who seek information all the time, both in their niche and many others areas. They read widely on a variety of topics. The author of this particular blog post had a schedule of study. Between listening to audio books, reading nonfiction and fiction and paying attention to the world around him, he was able to approach his blogging smartly. Here is a link to the article.
I took this as a challenge. I realize that no matter how smart I am I can enhance my body of knowledge. Often, reading is the last thing on my list. I have also been known to avoid newspapers, especially local ones, because of much of the negativity that accompanies the local news. However, this keeps me unaware of what is happening in my world. I want to change this.
The last thing I read were some of Virginia Woolf’s short stories. I was able to finish these because they were short stories. Sometimes, I have the problem of beginning books or articles and never finishing them.
Here is my plan:
– To be more open to the information around me. That means reading newspapers and reading different types of blogs. I do realize that I need to be discerning but closing myself off won’t help me be more aware of the world around me.
-To read more. And my more I mean, both fiction and nonfiction, in my area of study and outside my immediate interests.
-To finish what I’ve begun whenever possible.
This challenge seems like a lot but, for me, it is part of being successful. And, since I enjoy reading it shouldn’t be too painful.
Challenge: What are you reading now?
This is my 50th post. This is a huge milestone for me.
Last fall, when I first began to take my writing seriously, the idea of blogging caused panic attacks. Even when I began I couldn’t think past my next blog post. Now, here I am at 50 and officially not a beginning writer or blogger any longer. Here’s to many more posts. I’ve enjoyed the experience and connecting with other writers.
Here are some lessons I’ve learned in the past 50 posts.
Blogging isn’t easy. There is so much to learn. Some of the struggle is understanding the program and code that goes into a blog. While I’ve done this as easy as I could, I have so much to learn. I don’t think this will ever stop.
The place I am now with my posts isn’t the place where I started. My intention during the beginning was to write about journaling as a means to heal your life. I seldom speak of that even though I have tons of information about journaling. I believe in journaling and think that it can help anyone but I haven’t been able to incorporate that believe into my blog.
Knowing what to blog is also a learning process. I’ve discovered that some of my best received posts are the ones where I am baring my soul. I wonder what that means. Also, where do I go from here with that.
I have also learned that being a writer isn’t always exciting. I don’t always want to get up and write each morning. I’ve even skipped posts when nothing would come to me. While I love writing and I’ve reached the point where I “must” do it each day, it also has the flavor of a chore. For once, a chore I am happy to do but still, it can be tough.
I am excited about where this journey takes me. Right now I am just going along to see where the ride goes. I would have never guessed a year ago that I would be 50 posts into a blog. I would have never guessed that I would have a novel written (and badly in need of revision). Things look so different now in my life, goals have changed and how I see my future looks so different. I am still amazed.
Thanks for coming along for this ride.